I feel hurt….when you think you have something all figured out but then find out the other person feels differently is the most heart breaking feeling ever known. I guess I was wrong but I feel that i was lead on at the same time. I blame myself for feeling this way because I open up to people when i shouldn’t then end up getting hurt. It’s hard because I can’t say anything but inside I’ll just be screaming at the top of my lungs asking question and wondering why. I know commitment is hard but you should live life to the fullest and when something good comes your way you should embrace it instead of not wanting it. Knowing that you don’t want a commitment makes me think that I did something wrong or that there is something wrong with who I am. I hate the ‘what if’s’ but I can’t help thinking about it. I wont be able to tell you any of this so I fill that writing it will help me heal my heart before I have to face you again.
Summerrr…
It’s been a busy one and July is just going to get even more crazy! House/babysitting, possiby a day at the beach,FAIR, meetings and cheer camp!!! Ahhhh I can’t wait for this busy month to start!!! :)
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It’s crazy how someone can be so happy and alive with what they are doing in life and achieving their goals and aspirations but all the while feeling so alone…
Tell me this…
Why do I like talking to him?! …..could this b a start of something new or should I say continuing….it’s been 4 yrs and we r finally reconnected again I hope this lasts :)
Ohh sureee…
Just talk to me non stop for over a week and now just drop off the face of the earth the past two days…..hmmm I think I’ll just move on…some people Just never changeeeee
